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Kate Middleton and Pippa Middleton’s little brother James Middleton is having quite the week in the spotlight. First, he went public on Instagram, and today the Daily Mail published an essay the he penned all about his struggles with depression and ADD.
James went into detail about the intense clinical depression that he dealt with beginning in 2016. He writes:
I know I’m richly blessed and live a privileged life. But it did not make me immune to depression. It is tricky to describe the condition. It is not merely sadness. It is an illness, a cancer of the mind…You exist without purpose or direction. I couldn’t feel joy, excitement or anticipation–only heart-thudding anxiety propelled me out of bed in the morning. I didn’t actually contemplate suicide—but I didn’t want to live in the state of mind I was in either.
He goes on to say that he had trouble sleeping, working, and stopped communicating with his family and friends. “I also felt misunderstood; a complete failure,” James says. “I wouldn’t wish the sense of worthlessness and desperation, the isolation and loneliness on my worst enemy. I felt as if I was going crazy.”
It took James a year of dealing with these feelings to gather the strength to speak with his doctor about getting help, and he also asked his GP to talk with his family about what was going on with him.
James has been working with a therapist ever since, and his family helped “enormously” in dealing with his depression. He also adds that the reason he is speaking out about his mental health struggles now is twofold—first, James says that he now understands his depression and feels “a new sense of purpose and zest for life.”
The second reason has to do with Prince William and Kate. “I feel compelled to talk about it openly because this is precisely what my brother-in-law Prince William, my sister Catherine and Prince Harry are advocating through their mental health charity Heads Together,” says James. “I want to speak out, and they are my motivation for doing so.”
Snaps to James for bravely speaking so candidly about his depression and helping to end the stigma for other who are dealing with their own mental health struggles.